Took today off. Was feeling under the weather. Not sick, exactly, but not good enough to go to work. I think after a few hours of rest, it’s clear that it’s basically just “accumulated stress”. I’ve been trying to be cognizant of how stressed I get, because after 2014, I think I did some significant damage to my long-term well-being by being wildly overstressed for far, far too long. It’s taken years to recover from that, and if the way I feel right now is any indication, if I’ve recovered from that, I haven’t left a huge amount of buffer.

The job’s good – but it’s stressful. There are a lot of things going on, and one of the challenges has been to not feel responsible for all of them. It’s an odd situation, because I’ve been basically responsible for the whole shebang in the past, and it’s odd – I don’t think it’s less stressful to not be responsible for it. It might not be the worst idea to actually just ask to be officially responsible for all of the software side of things, because ultimately, I have the expertise, it’s the way I’m used to working, and there’s almost nothing I hate more than knowing what should be done & not having the authority to make the call.

*sigh*

Still, it’s a great job. Great team.

Spent the day tidying up little things. I donated a box of kids’ toys, and a bag of diapers we never used to Oakland Elizabeth House, which was nice. I hope some people have good times with those toys. Still a little wistful to see some of those things leave.

Otherwise… yeah. Not a ton going on. Work, kids. Summer’s coming up in a hurry, but we’ve got camp plans organized, which is good – it’s basically just Sarah’s Science *all summer* for J, which is what he asked for. It’ll be interesting to see if K is interested in the same thing next year.

Been playing some board games with friends, which is nice. we’ve recently played Unlock, Exit, Lanterns, and Sagrada. I think next time we might either continue Pandemic Legacy or hit up TIME Stories.